Hi,
I see where they get the ‘stress’ from post traumatic STRESS disorder 😉
It’s very simple, without blaming anyone, because I really don’t neither him nor myself, it’s a simple cause and effect.
Cause; feeling unsafe (trigger). Losing control in my save place (police entered my house). Triggers to a past situation which was very intense, a situation that still troubles me to this day, even though it was 6 years ago (involved a crisis intervention and people coming to my house without me knowing, and trying to take me away (only thing is, they succeeded)).
Effect; I don’t feel save anymore. I am very alert.
People ask me how I’m doing? I’m ok. I truly am. Am I suicidal? No, honestly , I’m not. Am I depressed? Nope, I’m no depressed either.
I am busy.
With what?
Busy with watching everything around me. My house isn’t my save place anymore. I am scared in my own livingroom. I have to be alert 24/7. I don’t have time to focus or even to take a minute and think about how I am feeling. NO, no time left. Got to stay alert.
Of course the word ‘okay’ as in ‘being okay’ can be discussed, but I am not suicidal nor depressed. Nor do I feel the need to act harmful to myself. I am 100% focussed on my environment.
Is this the best situation? No, probably not. But right now, the best way to get through my sunday.
xoxo
Brianna
Me & CPTSD (Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) 
what a tough place to be. hang in there, and sunday will soon be over. here’s hoping tomorrow is better than today.
Thanks for your support! Means a lot 🙂 !
You are right in that it isn’t the best place to be in but you getting through it, hopefully this feeling of your home not being safe will soon pass. I know it can be very tiring mentally and physically when you can’t switch off at all
Thanks for your comment!
It’s very tiring indeed. I decided I need a different approach, so I’m more in the distract-mode right now 🙂 which is a lot more helpful!
I’m so sorry you feel like this. Those police check-ins are supposed to be for your health, but from a client perspective they are very scary. I’m glad you were not hospitalized yesterday. Have you spoken with the person who called them, yet?
Thanks for your comment!!
I talked to him yes 🙂 we are fine now. He told me he panicked and called the police. He just wanted me to be save.