Hello,
Well.. It seems like I survived yesterday. I don’t even know how. It was all just such a mess.
I feel bad for my mum, she had to hear everything.
Which ended with me texting her; ‘I CANT. LISTEN TO ME. THE ONLY THING I WANT TO DO, IS DIE’
She didn’t answer.. though I saw she read it. But saying that did make me think.. If all I want to do is die, why haven’t i cut myself? Why haven’t I taken an overdose? So maybe a little part of me still has hope. Without hope you can’t live right? Actually realizing this made me stop crying.. and then I noticed how exhausted I was.
After a silence of 20 minutes I send her a crying emoticon. She said ‘I love you’, then I told her ‘Gonna go sleepy’ she said ‘Good idea, goodnight my sweet Brianna’.
I slept well though! Just heard my mum is on her way over here, and she told me she wants to take me to the McDonald’s, childish as I am, I am very excited now.
A bit worried for the rest of the day. Hope it’ll be okay.
xoxo
Brianna
You got through x
You are right, I got through, thanks
I’m proud of you!
Wow, thanks :$
How are you doing?
I’m okay, things are a bit chaotic on the lovelife front but I’m dealing with it. I’ve had a tough few days but nothing unmanageable which is good.
Okay, I’m glad you feel the things are manageable!
Is there a reason you put your blog on private :$ ?
Glad to hear your okay though! 🙂
Ah I wrote a post on that, I just got a bit freaked about who was reading it, so I’ve decided to just password protect some of my posts now!
Ah, I see. Good that you found a way that makes you feel save 🙂 even if it is putting it on private.
Hug! Take care
Is there a way of private messaging you here? I can send you the password for the posts 🙂
Uhm, there is a ‘contact’ thingy under ‘about me’. My email for this blog is cptsd 2013 at hotmail dot com
You did sweety! 😀
I’m very proud of you! You choose healthy behaviour!
Have fun @ mc d!
Lots of hugs! <3333
Nd thumbs up for not cutting 😀
And: I care about you, Bri! 🙂
Sometimes all that we can do is take one step at a time and hand on to hope for our futures. Praying for you!!
Thank you, that’s sweet 🙂 !
Take care as well!
Oops.. sorry. I meant “hang on”… Blessings to you! 🙂
No need to say sorry!
Hugs 🙂 !